A Star Waiting For Me to Fall

“Tell her something in my heart needs her more than even clowns need the laughter of the crowd. Tell her what was wrong; I sometimes think too much but say nothing at all. And tell her from this high terrain, I am ready now to fall. I am ready now to fall.”

Over the past two years, I have had a hard time explaining the black star branded on my side. Originally, it was the symbol of a girl I loved dearly. She had the same black star on her side along with other stars representing the most important people in her life, including me. But that love was never meant to last and the black star faded into the night, its luster lost along with the reason for my existence. Not to worry though, I found other reasons to rise and fall with the sun, but lost sight of the original one, love.

When I was a child, I was far too aware of my own existence. Therefore, I asked myself much to early in life what the point of it all was. Naturally, I used situations I was exposed to in order to determine my answer. I remember day in and day out, seeing my Dad living for my Mom. So, I decided that the point of this existence, the dream if you will, was to find and spend as much time with the person that is your reason for living.

Over the course of my adult life, I have seen this dream shattered countless times. My father suffered and died of cancer, my mother has been struggling emotionally for the past decade to deal with it. I have seen so many divorces, bad relationships, and breakups. One of which has caused me to question my own heart. My dream had faded.

My black star was merely a blemish on my skin, a manifestation of the turmoil within. It had evolved from representing love, to representing the loss of it, as if a stars light had been extinguished and its presence vanished. Love could no longer be used as a guide because it was no longer visible in the night sky. The black star represented my dream and it had faded to the point I could no longer see it.

However, I failed to realize that there is not just one star in the sky, just as though there is not simply one form of love. My family and friends filled in the gaps and became a love that could guide me. Ultimately, I realized that even though the romantic form of love had faded from sight, all the other stars could still be used to determine its location.

Upon determining the location of love, I realized you were there, waiting just behind the star that had broken. You were waiting for me to see past it, to see that your radiance was brimming around the broken star that was still hanging in my vision. It is apparent that you will not be extinguished and that your brilliance grows continuously, a beacon that will shine brighter than all other stars in the sky, leading me back to my dream.

It’s an interesting concept, a star waiting for me to fall. Well, for you, I am ready now to fall.

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